Since this realization I have gone through some turmoil in the "love" arena. I've lost a wife, lost and gained a self love like no other, exist and bask in the deep love of my daughter, and most recently shared that new found love with another. I tend to believe in the notion of finding the love you seek, only when you have found the self love and respect you deserve within yourself.
This process of self love has made my life of loving another person pretty much non-existent. A part of me doesn't care because the love I have around me and in me more than suffices, but like anyone, I also crave the affection of another.
In the not so distant past I was able to bask in a new state of love and share it with someone who came across my path when I least expected it. This special woman was able to show this traveling aficionado a love that he had long forgotten.
A Travel Lovers Dilemma
This untamed unexpected love was a great thing to be around, but this love was also a dilemma. I don't often come around those who share the same notions I have for travel and life. I like to exist in the outer realms of conformity, most are very happy to exist within it. I don't judge these people, but personally I cannot live there myself.
I like a challenge, I like adventure, I like to explore.
At this point in my life for me to commit to one place permanently, is something I simply cannot do.
It was here that this love began to dissipate.
I was too much intertwined with another love, my love for travel; I couldn't give the love this person deserved fully.
The cliché goes that you stumble across something when you least expect it, and this has played out time and time again in my recent life. I came across this love when I least expected and it felt amazing, to feel another person on a connection so passionately, so deeply (wait did that just get naughty!?).
However this love would never allow the other to coexist together harmoniously, I had to pick one.
As you can see this site is still very much alive and so ultimately I made the decision.
I don't know if this is an occurrence I will find throughout my life or if one day I will find that special person that eloquently intertwines with my being and with my love for travel.
If or when that happens I'm not sure, until that day comes I will continue to explore and travel.
Who knows maybe the very same love I bask in when out in the world, will be the same unexpected love that may someday find me?